WHO AM I?

So.. The question is: WHO am I?

Honestly, this is one of the things I don't like answering so much coz its complicated and seriously, even I don't know me at times... So, just to let you guys know... This entry is who I think I am and I apologize in advance if my entry is quite scattered.

Firstly, my name is Karla Ysabel B. Ramos; called either Karla (with a "K") or Kay (and yes, there is really no "E") to those who think my name is too long. There one thing I wanna share and one that I've never really told anyone (coz I really don't see the need to), but when I was born, my mom wanted my name to be Celina. YUCK! seriosly... YUCK! But thank god my dad thought it was a horrible name (which I totally agree on), and said Karla was a prettier one. Weird thing with my name is that its just really random. Me, unlike my other siblings, are named after relatives, my 2 lolas and my lolo to be exact. I guess they we're hoping for another boy so that I could've been named after my other lolo. But after writing that down, I now realize (just now) that the reason why my mom wanted me to be named Celina was so that I could be named after her mom. Ooooh well! I don't mind being a Karla one bit!

Lets see... Well, I'm the youngest in the family-- I have 2 older sisters and a brother whom I can admit I'm quite close to, and I'm extremely spoiled to my dad. Truly, I enjoy being the youngest, even if they always pick on me and tell me to do stuff... I actually love the feeling of it and well, it has its advantages (example, when you fight with your siblings, they normally take your side... based on experience!). Being the youngest, your always the one whose over protected, always being babied and well, in my case, given more or less what I want (don't worry, this is something was taught not to abuse!). As the youngest and having 2 Ates, they were the ones who are more or less responsible for me in becoming who I am and its my eldest sister who I treat like a mom for always being there to help me learn from my mistakes. Being the last one in the family, you tend to see your elders as an inspiration and someone to look up to.

Something interesting: I have the same birthday with my sister who is EXACTLY 2 years older than me. We were both born on December 11 and everyone finds it cool. We basically share everything-- from rooms, books, some shoes, bed... down to our birthday! I guess its technically like having a twin since we have the same things and we even act alike. I more or less consider her my best friend since I am with her almost all the time and she seems to be one of the people who appreciate me for who I really am. It actually scares people coz we act so much alike, we sound alike (our parents and friends find it hard to tell us apart on the phone), we look alike (except that she's WAY thinner than me) and the only thing that makes her different from me is that I am actually more friendly as compared to her. Having someone who is with you most of the time is actually fun, you barely get lonely and you eventually get used to it.

Well, I'm a paref girl- and I mean since the beginning of time. I studied in Rosemont and obviously now, in Woodrose. I'm the only one in my family who is 100% Paref... something I care to share, and actually quite proud of it! My sisters studied here as well, and I'm actually known to many as: "Cheskas sister" or "Nikkis sister". As much as I love my sisters and all, sometimes its really hard for me coz everyone (more or less) expects me to be exactly like them, which I tell you guys now: I am not, and never will be. Its real difficult for me to live up to the expectations of many, especially when they compare me to my ate Chez coz she was so... "high up there" when she was in highschool. She was student council president, blue team captain, class president etc, to the point that she was asked to let one of these things go since she had too many. And for my other sister, ate nix... Well, lets just say she had her own things such as volleyball co captain, rosette writer (I think), class rep, cheerdancer etc... And all I am is the captain of the softball varsity. I mean, I love it really! I've been co captain since I was second year and I love doing everything I do for it! Its just that, compared to both my sisters... Well, its kind depressing! This was really something that I found difficult to do, coz even if I know the teachers really don't mean to do this, sometimes, its just something you cant help! I remember last year, for lit, every meeting, the teacher would always call me to recite because she knew my sisters and they LOVED literature... So I guess, she thought I did too. I was... more or less "forced" to really participate in class, which I barely do coz I don't like saying things that I'm not quite sure is what's right. But despite all those, I still love my sisters (coz its not their fault for doing so much for school) and of course, the teachers as well.

Like I mentioned a while ago, I'm part of the softball varsity. I joined when I was grade 7 and I've enjoyed the sport ever since! Its one thing that I love doing coz it does so much for me. It serves as my exercise, my outlet for anger/stress and my past time. Its one thing I can call my own coz I was the only one among my sisters who was part of the varsity since I was in intermediate and who really devoted a lot to the team. Funny thing though, I've been part of this varsity for almost 5 years now and I only got my own equipment last year! This is one thing that I am really serious about. Ever since second year, I have been very organized with all my softball papers. I make sure that the teams attendance is checked both in practices and games, and that everyone does their contribution to the team. Extreme dedication is needed in the team and ofcourse, loving the game and having fun.

With my studies, well... I'm just like everyone else who tries their best in all that we do in order to get an award. Although this may seem difficult for me since I have to spend my time well, I more or less deserve all the grades I have been getting for the past few years. The thing with me is that I am SHY during class -- especially when I have to talk in front of the class etc and I barely recite particularly in Filipino. I am 100% Pinoy but sadly, I suck in speaking the language. It really sucks for me though, coz once again, when my sisters were here, they weren't exactly brilliant in Filipino... But they could speak tagalog better than I do and they really write better. Sadly, I think that Gng. kind expects me to be like them... But NO! I'm really bad at it. I actually got an F in my Filipino essay this year! And last year, when we had the Filipino monologue, my sisters had to practice me at home to the point that I was getting "paos" already. I do practice a lot but its difficult for me since with my friends, we talk in speak English.

Outside school, not talking about classes, I can say that ion a person who prefers to be with others than to be alone. I'm actually extremely talkative once you get to know me and sometimes kind "gago" depending on who I am with. I love talking especially with my friends. I'm not so much of a party person and I prefer going to someone's house or staying home rather than going to the mall. I'm quite simple... And to many, I can seem "imposing", "demanding", sarcastic and at times insensitive... When I want to be. One thing I know about me is that when I have a disagreement with someone, and I think that I am right, I will not apologize to that person.. No matter what. I also do not like forcing others to like me and well, I don't change myself for someone to like me. I'm very straight forward to the point of no return and I am very open to others. I'm 100% scared of clowns and mascots... And I hate going to amusement parks. Last but not the least, i love my family and friends :)

Well, this is more or less who I am. A summary of it all...

I AM KARLA / KAY... And loving it to bits!!!